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It’s the 24th of December and it’s a pretty fine day. It’s just an ordinary day for lil’ ol me. Don’t take it personally. I know it’s noche buena and all but I haven’t really been feeling Christmas at all. Is that what really happens when we grow up? We don’t anticipate it anymore? Oh boy! Days go by so fast when we grow up.

I miss being a kid. Oh let me rephrase that. I miss being able to feel this certain feeling. The feeling of Christmas. The time were families gather together. I miss Tito Boy so much and he’s cooking. I miss my cousins. One I can’t find. *sigh*

I guess that’s what you have to cope up when you grow up. Changes. I definitely hate it. not just hate but I LOATHE it. but that’s what life is all about.

It’s 4 days before Christmas and I have never felt so alone. I feel like there is something missing. Its like everything that I had was taken away from me. Here I am. Eating chocolate to cheer myself up. (Chocolates are like a best friend for me tonight) Endorphines make me sick yet it makes me feel good. I’m starting to gain weight again because I keep on eating when I get depressed. SCREW DIET!

REFLECTION.

After a long wait to finish the film, finally it’s done.
This production team has gone through thick and thin. From 3 canceled shoots
to the creepy and spiritual issue, this team has proven that no one can hinder
us from doing what we do best, BE MASS COMMUNICATION Students.

The day of our departure for our shoot for MAKAPILI, I got
sick so I wasn’t able to come. I regretted that time of my life. I know I have
missed so much. I know I was not physically present but my heart and prayers
were with them. Though strange things happened, I thank God nobody got
seriously hurt.

After the shoot, a lot of shitty things happened. There came
a point that friendship was tested. Trust was an issue and the good old
financial blues but yes, we pulled through. So screw those who didn’t believe
in us.

To my team, I apologize for not giving my all. Yes, I had
lost hope but you guys were my tower. I have underestimated this production but
I was wrong because the people behind it really kicked ass. I love you guys.