I wonder why people tend to be selfish sometimes. I mean is it because they want something for themselves alone or maybe the fact that there is something missing from them?
My head’s spinnin. Can’t go on for now.
Seeing some my friends drop out was unexpected when I started out college. I thought we are all graduating together. But as I grew, I just realized the harsh reality that there is no forever or people will keep on leaving. Well, I can’t be selfish and let them stay for the rest of my life. They do have a life to live to yah know!
I have witnessed a lot of my friends drop out because of work. I’m kinda envious because they get to earn their own money and they get to help out their p’s and they get to go places and buy their own stuff. But my mum and dad and other work connoisseurs let me figure out that my priorities right now are my studies and besides I got one year to go before I graduate. Yes, one year beybeh! Bring it on! Well, I suppose there’s no reason to be a green eyed monster after all.
I wish I could turn back the hands of time and enjoy our moments together. Now it just feels like I’m so far apart. I miss you Ilong and Kalbo!♥
It sucks when you already feel bad, ipagdudukdukan pa sayo na malungkot ka and it will make you feel worse. Big time! Then you lay on your bed, crying. You curl up like your a maggot na binudburan ng asin because it hurts so bad. Then you cry and cry. Then your sadness turns to anger. You wanna kill but you can’t because it is wrong. So wrong and you’ll end up hurting other people and end up hurting yourself even more. Then it turns into hate. You’ll end up hating everybody. Even those who people you don’t even know. You’ll hate them so much that it starts to kill you inside and out.
You know what to do?
Listen to loud music. Declare that you can make it without them and tell yourself you deserve more than this… then move on. Be a fly and fly away rather than bug them.
Because you are so much more than a bug and you’ve got better things to do.
I wonder why people are being *sSess today. First, there was _. We were just kidding around then he became an @#*$ all of a sudden. Then there was the guy from the so called Dental Clinic, which by the way doesn’t look like a dental clinic to me. He was saying rude things right in front of my face. I was almost about to punch the psycho maniac but hey I just said to myself… his not worth even a pinch of my *ss. So he can kiss it goodbye.
Its already 2.30am here. I wasnt able to go back to sleep. I watched CNN. And there is an on going war in Baghdad. I couldnt help but cry. i saw an old man, shaking, quivering and I saw fear in his eyes. Those eyes… I will never forget them. He said "America… is able to sleep but here all you could think of is war…. war…" It just made me realized how blessed this country is.
This country doesn’t know what it is missing. We walk as if we’re dead people. Living our own lives comfortably. We aren’t thankful enough. We live our lives full of complaints. Everyday, we complain about what clothes to wear, what to eat, or even what we have. But what we don’t see is that there are things we should be more concerned about.
Can’t sleep again. I figured, facing the computer wasn’t part of the plan but here I am, writing a new entry on my blog. I don’t actually know what to type. Probably I’ll let my freedom of self expression lead me on what I should be writing.
I watched this film starred by Demi Moore. Don’t actually know the title coz I didn’t get the chance to see from the beginning. All I know is her so called friends were trying to kill her. I noticed one thing though. There’s this guy in the movie hired to scare the heck out of Demi and he couldn’t help but to fall in love with her. Escaping from the hands of her so called friends. Demi got to escape and went to the highest point of the lighthouse. Then this certain guy catched up with her and gave her something, not really sure what it is. It looked like a shell, to get a clearer picture, it was a designed tahong shell. (They buried it by the sea together making a promise that if someone would find it, it simply means they were meant for each other.. awwww) Then he jumped of from the balcony of the lighthouse. Everything was perfect and romantic, and he jumps off the cliff?
I realized, it happens in real life. People pass by to manipulate and stir up who we are but sometimes they end up jumping off the cliff and leave us feeling empty and wondering.
I have seen people come and go and I’m kinda used to it. Numb? No. I just chose not to sulk it all in.
For those who stayed, thanks. You guys know I love you dearly.
For those who didn’t, big thanks. You put out my strongest
She reached for her shoe to get by;
and went to the upper room to cry;
As the uproar of the crowd passed by;
Inside she wailed for someone to just say hi;
She went on her way and never looked back;
Hoping again to return to the right track;
The downfall of Ms. Funny bones
never again to be unfold…
People have always wanted a certain place in this world. Either being known or as simple as in someone’s heart. Romantically kidding aside, both may be applied. Don’t you think?
