Grabeh i have a new phone.. moto PEBL Ang bait ni Lord! Thank you Lord! grabeh! God is faithful… Sobrang! Huwaw talaga! Naiiyak ako sa tuwa! Grabeh. Touch ako… sobrang ni-bless ako ni Lord! waAAaaAAah! Thank You Lord!
Nakakatuwa…. pag may isang bagay na nagpapasaya sa bawat tao… With just one capture of a moment would mean something…
God kept speaking through the situations in my life. How one moment should be captured and worth keeping, maybe not physically, but deep within.
We were in Proj. 4, nilibing kasi yung ashes ni lola sa Marikina Memorial. I thought it was just one of those cemeteries but the place just turned out a lot more different than I suspected it to be. It was quiet, peaceful… I wasn’t even scared or bothered at all. The wind was blowing yet there was no fear nor sorrow. I was walking by the "nitso’s" and looking at the dates… Life is too short to be wasted away… 10 years, 15, 20, 50 years… It’s short. If it wasnt, we’ll be stuck in misery… hey I’m not being negative… Life is made to be a test… a challenge… a quiz… a midterm… thesis even… Life is a beauty… because of those misery, pain we go through, we become more and more the person God wants us to be… do we? Ask yourselves…
**unfinished**
I miss…
I miss being really close to God
I miss my Mom
I miss myself
I miss my child hood
I miss…
I miss being loved
I miss being hugged
I miss being crazy
I miss being silent
I miss…
I miss having someone
I miss holding hands
I miss communication
I miss giving
I miss…
I miss the rain
I miss the drizzle
I miss close family ties
I miss my cousins
I miss…
I miss being a kid
I miss dirty Ice cream
I miss patintero
I miss my childhood pips
I miss…
I miss the b and the p girls
I miss my spiritual daughters
I miss camp
I miss the fog in tagaytay
I miss…
I miss…
I miss…
wala lang
nag eemang lang! 
January 22, 2o07 The very day I will never forget. Dami nangyari. Daming natutunan. Daming kapasawayan. Daming kasiyahan. Di ko ma-express. Di ko alam kung saan ko sisimulan.
Ah
Nagsimula ito kaninang umaga. Akala ko mahuhuli na ko sa klase. As usual late na naman ako. Paano ba naman 7:3o na ko nagising. Oras ng klase eh noh? Batas ako eh. hehe. Joke lang. Pagdating ko dun sa school… Wala si Prof. "Uy-gurl-nakakalorker" Pebre. So, me and Arf arf, RS, decided to go to the Library and research about our thesis. Maganda ang gising ko kaya I found myself smiling at everyone. Even the girl who is handling the books by the counter. I smiled at her and said "Good morning" with a soft gentle voice. Mega simangot lang siya. Nakakalungkot pero smile pa rin ako baka sakaling magabago ang atmosphere niya… Habang nag aantay ng libro na hiniram ko, may nabasa ako
"One hour. One hour mo lang pde hiramin yung librong kinuha mo. Pag lumagpas ka, magbabayad ka ng lima.. limang piso." Napagtanto ko… "Paano mo matatapos ang isang libro ng isang oras?" Pero ayus yun. It teaches us to be patient. Kung baga kung magbabasa ka ng Harry Potter… aabot ka ng dalawang taon (exagg naman!) Sige anim na buwan para matapos mo ito. Kapag hindi mo siya naintindihan, balikan mo ulit tapos anim na buwan ulit. Ok lang yun. Patience is a virtue.
Ngumiti lang ako… pero di pa rin tumalab ang charms ko. Siguro ganun lang talaga yung babae dun sa counter or may pinagdadaanan siya.
Masaya pumasok sa library. Madaming librong gustong kumausap sayo. Kung meron nga lang tayong 5 utak at pwede pagsabay sabayin basahin ang lahat ng ito… Go ako! - Seguey
So we arrived, did our research and stuff then Yoh and Nv came. Medyo tapos na kame ni RS pero ayus lang. Then we left Yoh downstairs then proceeded to the second floor, The Filipiniana section. Ayus dun. Yung nakuha kong libro parang kinain na ng panahon. pero salamat sa aming research nakahinga ito muli.
Habang nagsusulat si Nv ng research. Napag usapan namin si … Naku baka mabasa niya ito. Tapos kinuwento niya ang buhay ni …. Nakakatuwa. Nakita ko sa mga mata ng kaibigan ko ang pagmamahal niya kay …. Kaya nag diverse kami ng plan para sa kanya. Buwahahahaha! Kuwento ko pagtapos na. Baka mabasa niya ito!
Bandang tanghali. Humiwalay samin si RS sapagkat may meeting de avance sa kolehiyo namin. Kailangan ang kanyang prisensya. So its just us… Me, Yem, Yoh and Nv. We went straight to CB (College of Business) after we ate our lunch for some interviews and questions for our thesis. Kinakabahan nga kami. Baka kasi pag uupakan kami ng tao dun. (Isa pa ulit istorya yun. Next time na lang.) A supposedly innocent interview became one heckish of an embarassment. Kasi…
We were interviewing some of the students of Ad/PR and as researchers of something that would change the flow of the Ad PR history, would want to keep our identities to ourselves. They kept on asking and we just kept on laughing but we were still getting the information needed. They already had the thought that we weren’t from the school they were going to. They asumed we’re from CEU. Not until…
The chair came along. (Uh-oh) She asks us. and were all, obviously screwed. So Nv just told the truth. Man! What an adventure!! I never thought gathering data was that hard… but it was fun. We ended up laughing about it instead. Napilitan pa kami rumampa sa buong school just to find what we were looking for. We met a lot of people and they helped us which is a blessing. Tapos tinutukso ako ni Yem and Nv dun kay kuya SA. Nyak! Ayun.
Then Yoh had to go to CoC for the modeling then we saw RS at the lobby talking to some Ad/PR students. God! We we’re all panicking because of the stupidity we did awhile back. Pero hindi pala sila yun. teehee.
Dumiretso kami ulit ng library. We went to seek for the archives. We went down sa basement… creepy, cold basement… pero wala na dun then we went to the fourth floor… This is really where it all began…
Somebody told us that the archives office was on the fourth floor. And so, we went there. Upon being a ping pong ball, being tossed by people back and forth, we came upon the Bonifacio hall. When we came in, I really thought it was the archives office… there were plaques everywhere, old stuff, more on relics and stuff then RS called us to the other side and showed us something…
It was plaques and old pictures of our professor Miss Rustica Carpio. I had goosebumps upon seeing this renowned woman, seeing her life shine upon success, awards here and there, joining the korean war in the 1950’s. We never imagined that this very simple old lady would create such impact in the entertainment industry as well as the literature world of the arts. I can still clearly remember what Envy said… "She doesn’t deserve being treated with such disrespect" and that opened my eyes, my heart to Madam Carpio. She deserves the utmost respect from us, her students. and after hearing what had happened to her life and love… We just wanted to hug her… so tight. We want to make her feel that she’s someone who deserves love and respect eventhough we are not of the same blood. We want us to be her kids because she doesn’t have any. We want her to be a part of us not just because of her achievements but for who she really is, Mam Carpio… A woman of success but deep down… she’s broken. As kuya Boni… was telling her story… we almost cried. Our hearts just crushed. So we planned to give her a little something special every time we meet. We planned to give her just simple notes and make "mano" to her and we would wear our uniform for her. Then at Valentine’s we will give her an appreciation party. We are still planning on it…
Kuya Boni was like an angel from God. He was all alone up there at the little Antique room but he was one of the main examples why I learned to appreciate other people other than my closest friends. God allowed us to see how lonely sometimes, life could be. How not to trust on outer appearances and how each and everyday is the rarest. God made me realize that my friends are precious than Gold nor silver. Nothing in the world could buy nor trade. God made us see that Riches or fame isnt everything. It’s all about the people you are going home to and the people you laugh and cry or even be silly with.
Mas lalo kong na-appreciate yung mga friends ko. I saw another side of them which people will never ever take away from them… such beauty you will never ever see on another side of the world. I believe God brought us together for a purpose.
Aaminin ko. Naging Idle ako when it comes to my friends but God just broke my barriers so I may see how precious this people could be.
TO MY DEAREST FRIENDs NV, YEM, YOH, RS
This day just made me realize how this friendship could be so wonderful. I will never ever trade it for anything else. God just made me realize how special you guys are to Him and to me. Honestly, Akala ko hindi ito magtatagal but God opened up my eyes that this friendship can go on when we choose to cherish it with all of our hearts and if we would fight for it. I pray that it won’t ever ever end. Even if we live our separate lives and we may have our own set of friend… I wont let go… I would always remember this day JAn. 22, 20o7. The day of realization, a day of appreciation… I Love You guys with all of my heart. God loves you!
A lot has been happening lately. Thesis here, and still thesis there. I’m beginning to think I’m crazy or something. Funny, I think I’m being a silly kid again. I miss it though… being a kid I mean. You don’t have to think too much. Let all the adults problem everything. Everytime you scratch your knee, they would make it feel all better… they would hug you then kiss you then buy you ice cream then tuck you into bed. Oh how I miss those moments.
Omigosh it’s 3am. Still have a 7:30am class to attend to. I think I already have 3 absenses or so and a few tardiness. (Kids:Please don’t imitate)
Along with my emotional coaster ride, my spiritual is riding along. I’m not going to give up now. I may lose a battle but I’m not a quiter.
I love running. You know why? - - - I love it when the heart beats so fast. It challenges you to keep on running. You stop and take a deep breath then you can just feel it thumping. A million gallons of blood… amazing how God made it the way it is…
I am really sleepy… tulog muna ako.
Aries: Its weird how people suddenly change moods. You’re one of em’.
Aquarius: "You started to run again and the enemy hits you… 1 time, 2 times, 3 times until it kills you. You begin to gasp for air and try to open your eyes but you couldn’t suddenly you just felt yourself being lifted…. by someone you betrayed a million times."
Taurus: Matutuwa ka… hindi dahil sa mga pagkakamali mo kundi dahil sa mga natututunan mo at sa katangahan mo. Unti unti kang nagigising at nagkakamalay sa mundong akala mo ay aakay sa iyo. Yun pala ay pagkatapos kang paglaruan at pagsawaan… iiwan ka din.
Cancer: Hindi ka kailanman aakayin ng mundong ito dahil ito’y makasarili. Huwag ka nang sumali sa agos.
Leo: When you retaliate, it comes back to you 7 times! Either you lose your allowance or your grandma will be mad at you for the rest of your life.
Capricorn: Ang buhay! Napaka-spesyal. Ang pinaka magandang regalo sa atin ni Lord. Sana huwag natin paglaruan. Alam mo naman ang tama sa mali diba? Minsan kailangan din gamitin ang konsensiya!
Scorpio: Huwag kang sumigaw. Daanin mo sa eye to eye contact. Makuha siya kamo sa tingin.
Libra: Kapag nahuli ka sa klase, pumasok ka pa rin. Believe me it’s still worth a dime of knowledge.
Virgo: Kumanta ka. Sumayaw ka. Magsulat ka kapag galit ka. Huwag mo ipadaan sa ibang tao ang galit mo sa mundo. Ano sila? Shock Absorber mo? Mahal na magalit ngayon.
Sagittarius: When you wake up every morning, breathe deep then sabay sigaw ng "Lord, isang yakap naman dzan!" Siguradong maganda ang araw mo.
Gemini: Kapag tumingin sa salamin, harapin ang katotohanan, harapin ang katotohanan na gwapo at maganda ka. Nabulag lang ng media ang mga nanunukso sayo.
Pisces: Bago mag desisyon, huwag tumingin sa horoscope kundi pumikit at sabihin sa sarili na kaya mo tahakin ang landas ng iyong buhay. Declare success!
*Para ito sa mga naniniwala sa horoscope. Bow! Gising gising uy!*
All this pressure is kickin in. This non stop moodswings just wont go away. Pati mga pinsan ko nadadamay. Kawawa naman! They’re all innocent. Thay haven’t caused any of my bad moods and yet I get them involved! I just want everybody and everything to leave me alone just for once. I just want silence. Serene. Calm. But No no no!
"Everything happens for a reason!"
Not my day. Not my day at all.
1. Closest to us is not family but death
2. Farthest from us is not the moon or stars but time passed
3. Biggest is not the mountain or sun but our lust and desire
4. heaviest weight is not the elephant but responsibility
5. Lightest is neither the wind nor earth but praying
6. Sharpest is either the knife or sword but our words
