EherM eHERm

As i struggled on my journey on life, I did grew weary, but some how little by little, step by step God is humbling me down. I was struggling with my devotion this morning. Really struggling! Physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. But when I woke up again, I’m happy and I’m full of hope. The moment I woke up was a simple way of God telling me that everything’s going to be ok. Just seeing my friends, my dad, my family, talking to my mom, laughing with my brother made me realize life doesn’t need to be complicated… if you just open your eyes to the things that really mattered most, then you can be happy… really happy but it won’t end there of course… I know struggles, more problems will come but God is there. God is with me.

I hope you would care to read this. Haha! I hope you do care for me. Wala lang. Down moments lang but I’m holding on…

As we were having our class about media management, something struck me… "People may or will leave you but God wont" Kasi kanina I felt empty inside. Sobrang emotionally down ako for the past few days. I couldn’t even talk with my disciples. It may seem I’m happy… well, I am. Pero may kulang deep inside of me. I will continue to ask God what’s wrong with me. He knows everything. I’m so emotionally drained Lord. Save me….

WaAh pasko na! May christmas tree na kame! hehe! waAah!

hEhe wala lang. Maligayang pasko sa lahat!

I miss you mommy. Hope you can be home for my birthday. *sighness* Love you Mom!

What a beautiful morning especially when you start your day right eventhough getting up from the wrong side of the bed and eating sisig for breakfast! *Sarap* Thank you Lord!

After the wilderness I’ve been through, there’s another one coming. I’m not tired neither am I complaining. *I love challenges* But I don’t seem to understand it.

I feel betrayed. I don’t know why. It’s just an opinion and opinions for me are neither right or wrong. When I woke up this morning, I just felt sad knowing and experiencing those ‘things’. Probably it was from my 14 hours of hibernation. haha. (Can’t you believe it! I slept for 14 hours, straight! Boy! Was I tired. It’s because of those hills! Haha) Yup! I know I’m not supposed to be sad. I’ve told Monique about choosing to be happy. But what if you’re really not? Waking up I started to ask God "Am I really seeking you Lord?" and "Am I really hearing you?" Because I don’t like pretending especially when it comes with my relationship with the Lord.

About my disciples, I hope that they continue on running for the Lord. And I hope that one day, they will be the ones running after me… if they have problems, if they have boyfriends, they’re walk with God.

I’ll never stop.