EherM eHERm

Can’t get this thing working. Dang!I suppose nobody’s going to read this…. accept ate Aubz. (Hi! Mamu!) Anyweiz, I had a great day! I learned basic camera tricks which are (ehem ehem!) ‘I might say’ that rockx. Got to work more on my skills. Yeah! I got to direct our shoot. Everybody helped out which made everything easier and fun. I’m really getting excited about school lately. IT TOTALLY ROCKXZ!

Other side of the story… Well, we watched this series on one of our subjects; "touched by an angel" and the topic was about forgiveness. Wow. Really heavy. The movie was fine. Really touching. Above all else, I can relate to it. Yikes! Ouch talaga! hehe. I kinda thought about forgiveness in my life. Actually I’m still confused about whether I had forgiven the people who hurt me in the past or not. (You know who you are!) hehe. I’m still searching within me. I don’t know. But I’m pretty xure that some of the people I hurt didn’t. I’m Sorry. No need for explanation. Kung galit ka pa rin, it’s your decision. It’s your problem anymore not mine. Madami na kong kailangan problemahin. Kaya if you don’t mind, do your part. I may sound sarcastic but I’m just being honest. I’m just freaking tired of this. Enough is enough. I know your happy now… well, are you? — hehe kaya ko kaya sabihin sa kanya toh!? hehe. Have to put all my guts out! hehe.

What am I feeling right now? NO REGRETS! Past is past. I’ve learned and I’m still learning…. to let go, to forgive, to see, to love again, to trust again, to stand up again…. I hope you are, too. Life is a never ending battle and if you fail or fall just stand up and say "Lasing lang ako" joke! Just say. "Oh well that’s life! tralalala lalala lala!" Just sing and smile about it. hehe. I’m not saying don’t take it seriously… Sinasabi ko lang na huwag kayo masyado magpapadala. Life is beautiful. As one of my friend quoted "Losing makes winning worthwhile!" Go lang go diba?! Go go go! And eto pa mas malupet dzan, Don’t rely on your own strength. Rely on God’s! Coz we are merely humans. Napapagod tayo.  (ouch! natatamaan ako sa mga sinasabi ko! hehe) God has a reson for allowing things to happen. We may never understand His wisdom but we simply have to trust His will… Because He is perfect! Thank you Lord!

Wala lang. I just feel depressed and out of sight, ya know. *sigh* I am happy though being alone. Hey, I’m not talkin’ bout lovelife. Just company. Do my friends even remember me? Sheesh. I hope they do. Anyeiz, a lotta things has been happenin lately and it seems I can’t get hold of em directly. whew! What a run. School’s been fun. (wow that rhymes!) haha. Unbelievable. I can still laugh. Cool. All is cool. All I need to do is just chill, I know. I’m just expressin myself. I wanna help out dad. I wanna work and help out but I really want to finish studying first. Aww shUckz! ehek ehek!

Anyweiz, I was doing my research about Oedipus Rex when I can’t help but to hear what the guys at the other cubicle were talkin about…… "liligawan this, niligawan that!" Oh snap! What a bunch of cockroaches! SHEESH!

I had fun at school. Although my allergies attacked again but it’s fine. I was voted for being the HEAD COMMITTEE FOR MAKE UP AND COSTUME. Tell me something I didn’t sensed. hehe. Nothin to be proud of really but it’s a first. Make up? Hey I wanna act! hehe. (demanding!) It’s alright.

I was watching this docu the other night. It’s about this popstar who sought refuge on her homeland after sinking the pop scene and still making a come back. Narelize ko na you can’t be happy kahit you have all the fame in the world and while I was doing my research about the famous authors in asia. Some of them committed suicide. yikes!

That made me remember my times with God. It’s the best times of my life. I miss Him. Right now, I’m just seeking something within me…. I know God is teaching me something. I trust Him. I know He knows what He is doing and it’s for a purpose….

GO LANG!

psalm 73:26

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever"

I’m so happy cause finally ive found my life verse…. hehe.

thank you LORD!

An inspiring story about a young man who had been an athiest was trained 2 be an olympic diver. He had afriend who always told him about Jesus who died in the cross for him but he never believed.

One night, the diver went on for a practice. The lights were all off. Only the moonlight was bright. He climbed up to the highest diving board and turned his back to the pool and extend his arms out.

He saw his shadow and noticed a cross shape.

Instead of diving, he knelt down and cried out to God to come into his life. Then, someone walked in and turned the lights on. The pool had been drained for repairs.

*end….

You want to earn repect? then learn to respect others

You want change? Start within yourself

You want to be heard? Then stop shouting nonsense

I really feel guilty about a lotta things lately. It’s so hard to talk to Him when you’ve done something you know He didnt like. It’s so hard to go near when you’ve hurt His feelings. Dang! How I hate myself… but either way, life must go on. Lord, I’m so sorry….

nakakainis… wala lang nakakainis lang. haaay… ang dami talagang liars sa mundo. haay… but life must go on…. ganun talaga.

A Father’s Letter to a Daughter

No man will ever claim you
unless he claims you from Me

I reserved a man for you
who has My heart and loves Me
more than he’ll love you

I won’t give you unless
he asks you from Me

He’s asleep, don’t wake him.
He’s busy for Me,
for My Kingdom.

Soon you’ll know him,
In My perfect time.

You’re my princess,
My daughter.

Let no prince claim you unless
He asks you from My hand,
For I Am you’re Father,
the King of kings.

You, my princess are worth
waiting for. I love you

God

Semi- charmed kinda life

If only I could introduce myself in a not so boring way, I would. But for formality’s sake, I’ll be doing it in the old fashion way. My name is Mary Grace Rodeo Y Andoque. Well, there’s really no ‘Y’ there. I just think its cute. Anyways, people call me Gracie and Mandy. Why Mandy? It’s kind of a long story. I don’t want to waste your time bragging about my life and what I don’t like. But you have no choice but read it because it is MY LIFE. I welcome thee to my world.

It was that faithful day, the 26^th day of November, in the year of our Lord 1986, a young woman of influence was born to dominate her own journey and not to mention, her allowance. Born from a half Chinese and Native Visayan family, this little young lady grew up to listen to alternative music and eat street food with her pals. Yes. I grew up here in Manila. I really envy people with provinces. I have never seen my relatives from the provinces and I also believe we need to escape the pollution once in a while.

Been here. Done this, done that. Do you really believe me? Hey, I’m only nineteen. Do you think I’ve done it all? My mom, Jocelyn, is currently working in Canada as a caretaker and my dad, Florenz, is unemployed. That’s another long story too. See, my life is full of stories. Not one of those telenovelas you see on the television. It’s the real thing, baby! The real deal.

I was raised here in Manila. I was usually the "bunso" of the family until a few of our younger generations came a long. I’m not bitter with them or the situation. I just missed being spoiled. No. Not really. I’m the eldest among us two. I’m studying at the Polytechnic University of the Philippines and I’m taking up Mass communication. I’m no big fan on being a news anchor. I want the hard core action outside the field. Or go back to what I love… Music. Disc Jockey? Why not? But I’ll be all cornered and I really don’t want it that way. I want to go out, meet people and learn other cultures. I want to hear out their lives and even worse, I want to be part of it. Sounds like I want to be a psychologist but no. It’s just one of my passion other than music and the arts. People. Other than that. I love being spiritual. I love my relationship with God right now. It has touched every aspect of my life. It really made a difference and I mean a big one. Am I in love? Yes, I am. Am I taken? Yes, by God. I have dreams and I mean a lot. Who doesn’t, right?

Just got back from church. A bit tired from designing the stage and dance practice. Tomorrow is another day to look out to. C2. No not the drink… Campus Convergence. C2. Gets?

We were assigned to design the stage 3 days before the said activity but I think we just made it. Beat that. Thanks to the grace and provision God, we were able to do it. I almost backed up but Kamille didn’t agree with the drama act of living church for one week. Really! I was! I was just so tired. I just wanna stay home the whole week and  prepare for school and everything but… God didn’t allow it to happen because He knows I need to prepare for this school year. Its a big battle ground out there. And He doesn’t want me to fall away so He used this project to make me stay and I did. Malakas sa kin si Lord eh. hehe. Astig talaga! Anyweiz, sa ngayon, di pa lumalabas yung pagka army design yung stage but I know God will give us the wisdom.ü

Alam nio ba? Ang saya nung devotion ko the other night kasi God gave me wisdom at nakagawa na ako ng pwede nang i- preach. Astig. I really had a great time just seeking the Lord. Sobrang unexplainable yung feeling. Just can’t get enough kaya nga lang ngayon di ako nakapag devotion. Mamya pag uwi! God also taught me about patience. Grabe, laking tulong pala pag hindi ka magreretaliate. All you have to do is quiet down your spirit and fill it up with God’s love.

I’m tired, physically but it’s all worth it.

I LOVE YOU LORD!:)